Cheese died Wednesday I think and King Leonidus died yesterday. Death is on a cat killing spree I guess.
I figured out Leonidus died today. As, soon as I figured it out I started crying. I haven't checked up on him since school started, I've been so busy. It made me feel horrible. I loved him. :(
After that I just got super sad. Everything started coming to me. Then my mom and kevin did the usual talk about me even though I  can hear them in the next room, which makes me so depressed. She's my mom. I shouldn't have to hear that come out of her mouth.
Plus, My mom said she had no money, which means I might not be able to get a senior dress up day outfit which means I'll be a loser.
Basically, I had  a nervous break down and just started crying. Sadly enough Blaine was there too, I haven't ever done that in front of him before. I don't think he realized I was crying but he just held me for like 20 minutes just telling me he loved me.

I don't know what I would do without him. I don't think I could live, literally.

Was amazing! The best dance I've ever been to. I'm usually shy and don't dance or anything. But I actually danced and had a really good time.
Before hand Me, Anthony, Katie, Andy, Renee, Kyle, kelly, shiloh And Blaine Went to taco bell and andy payed for all of us. He spent like 60 dollars on all of us. lmao.
I was gonna wear my black and white dress but my mom offered to buy me a new dress and I couldn't pass that up. I got a orange one that's all hippy dippie. My mom didn't like it. But I loved it.
I just had a really good time.
Carly was there! Omfg. I missed her a lot.
And Lincoln C. was there with his girlfriend.
But Me, Blaine, Kyle, Matt, Matt's girlfriend (forget her name), Kelly, Shiloh, Carly, Andy, Anthony all took a group picture and carly payed for it. SO group picture will be up in a few weeks.


:):)

My oldest friend is Cully Stocker. I've known her ever since I was 7. We don't talk to each other much or see her much. But she is still my bestest friend ever. No matter how much time we don't spend together.
Overall my close friends as of the past 4 years has changed. I've gained some and lost some. As for the lost ones Who cares. As for the ones I gained Cheers.

Blaine says (11:04 PM):
 Night baby, I will always love you, forever.
shley. says (11:05 PM):
 Night. I will always love you forever as well


:):)

I've been posting my doings and thoughts lately on my deivant art account instead of here. Mainly because My friends check their deviant art daily.
Anywho. I'm fine and dandy. Had 2 great weekends in a row.

I'm loving school. It's been pretty good. Hopefully it will stay that way and be the best year yet. Everyone else seems conent which is odd. That usually doesn't happen. But, nevertheless I'm thankful for it.


Blaine right before he left for jujistu practice asked me what my hopes, dreams, goals were. I thought he was kidding so I said What's yours? He said Spending a long happy life with me. Perhaps a few kids. Nice house. Nice car. And a hot pink Nintendo DSI. That made me giggle. His mom ordered him one yesterday. Lucky bitch!

As emo as it sounds it very true. I won't cry in front of anyone. I may act sad but Not as sad as I ever feel. And sometime the most littlest things makes me sad randomly. It's weird. Blaine has to literally beg me to tell him what's wrong with me.

Was okay. Could have been better but okay. I was fine and dandy but then I noticed that Brittany was there so I just about left school and not looked back. But After being emo for about 20 minutes, I sucked it up and grew happy again.

1st Period- Environmental Science- At first I thought GOOD GOD! This is FUCKING HORRIBLE! (you see I took it last year but I failed it. I was the only person That had to retake it from my previous class so I felt like a complete failure and felt like it wasn't fair). But then I thought it wasn't going to be THAT bad. Because I've done it all before. I still had my papers I could just copy them. But I swore to never see that lady again last year because she was a horrible teacher. (Btw lady= Mrs. Moore the teacher of the class)
2nd Period- Choir- I love Choir. It wasn't that bad. But It was full of either people that have never taken Choir in their life or freshmen. Which means we will never go to State Competion because we would be that bad. I want to go!
3rd- Clay- Went great. I have Caitlynn, Addie, And Bethany in there.
4th- Alegbra 2- Went okay.
5th- Lunch- Love it!

Ugh. I don't feel like writing more at the moment. It's 10:32 am. I have to wake up at 5:30 PM for school.
I've had a long, tired, day.
I'll finish it some other time. I'm switching my scedule anyways. SO oh well!

I am going to become a nurse. It's the thing that I keep on going back to. I love helping people. And I love cheering people up. So, A nurse just seems perfect. It takes 2 years. Which is short. I want something that doesn't take that long. So it's perfect. Plus My mom is a nurses aid which is kinda like a nurse. You just don't have a actual degree. You are just certified to do stuff like a nurse. Or I could just become a nurses aid like my mom.
Point is. I think that's what I am going to do. It won't be easy consider how horrible my memory is and I'll be required to remember tons of medical terms and things. But OH WELL. Nursing also pays really good. And it's a job that is always in high demand. So I would never be out of a job. AND! You can find a Nurse Program just about anywhere.


On the side Note. School Starts Wednesday. I'm really excited because I get to hang out with everyone again. But I'm also sad because I know it's my last year. I'll make it though. I have some wonderful friends, family and Of course Blaine Wyler. That's all I need.

I have to go school shopping soon. I already got a Within Temptation T-shirt and A Day to Remember T-shirt. <3 Fuck yeah!
And I got some cool shoes with guitars on them.


I am not looking forward to waking up at 6 for school. ;[

Starts in 12 days and as of right now I'm scared shitless.

My last year.

Everyone I know will go off to college somewhere wheither it be close or far away. Either way I don't think there will be time for "fun and games"

It really scares me. Nothing will be the same anymore.

I'll have to pick a college and go to it. Get a job and be a grown up.

Shit. :(

Life has been good recently. Nothing to complain about. :)

School starts the 26th. Last year of school! I'll finally be done.

12 years of school is way to much. :(


Tonight I'm "house sitting" Blaine's house. ;D

*edit*

He said he got me something from bath and body works while they were on their trip :D


Plus I just found out something else.

Life is SUPER GOOD now.